Just Those Few Weeks

I feel very fortunate to be carrying this tiny gift from God but I will never forget those gifts that could have been. As much as we've gained, we've lost just as much. We've been through the in vitro process 3 times and had a total of 10 embryos. I lost the first two in a miscarriage back in August. On our second attempt, the two embryos never attached. On the third attempt, we were blessed with twins but lost one very early. After we became pregnant, we lost 3 embryos before we were able to freeze them. I know this sounds crazy, but whether it was an embryo that never attached, or a baby that didn't make it, each of them were my children. Each of them hold a very special place in my heart and each of them I am very thankful for. I found this poem on a friends blog a few days ago and it really touched my heart. It basically summed up exactly how I feel about all those little Kevin and Darla's that could have been.

Just Those Few Weeks

For those few weeks-
I had you to myself.
And that seems too short of time
To be changed so profoundly.

In those few weeks-
I came to know you....
And to love you.
You came to trust me with your life.
Oh, what a life I planned for you!!

Just those few weeks-
It wasn't enough time to convince others
How special and important you were.
How odd, a truly unique person has recently died
And no one is mourning the passing.

Just a few mere weeks-
And no "normal" person would cry all night
Over a tiny, unfinished baby,
Or get depressed and withdraw day after endless day.
No one would, so why am I?

You were just those few weeks my little one
You darted in and out of my life too quickly.
But it seems that's all the time you needed
To make my life so much richer-
And give me a small glimpse of eternity.

By: Susan Erlin